I don’t live a busy life, nor am I attached to or entangled in chaotic concerns. I’ve always traveled lightly, with minimal belongings, and have wholeheartedly embraced a life of renunciation which is a voluntary simplicity rooted in freedom, trust in life, and balanced sufficiency.

For a long time, I wanted nothing to do with the mainstream market. I was deeply disillusioned and uninterested in what the world seemed to offer, gradually becoming distant and weary. Its values and aims felt completely incompatible with a deep inner calling.

But looking back on those earlier years, I now see that much of that came from an aversive and limited view, one that drained precious energy through avoidance and resistance, rather than wise discernment and acceptance (not attachment) to everything as it is.

In my early twenties, I was also fired for noticing and speaking up about the overcharging and exploitation of patients. That experience was painful, one of many involving greed-driven leaders and manipulative salespeople carrying the heavy baggage of their own business-karma.

Rather than harden or blame, I committed to uncovering any blind spots/distorted views and to diligently correcting mental confusions and ignorance. I’m aware that even the most well-intentioned and intelligent hearts can be deceived if they’re not deeply mindful of the dysfunctional, unconscious games people play just to get what they want.

I’ve also had my share of being told I wasn’t the “right fit,” was “strange,” a “square peg in a round hole,” “too free-spirited,” or didn’t belong. Now with clear understanding, I don’t need to take those judgments personally and can see right through the illusion much quicker. I don’t have to be “nice” or obediently go along just to be liked, needed, or understood as I used to when I didn’t know any better.

It’s been deeply challenging and I don’t claim to have all the answers as to “why?”.   But rather than replicate the same harm and repeat same mistakes, I chose to heal in seclusion, to feel all the anger (caused by repeated violations and abuse) and allow it to move through without projecting it outward. 

Hatred is Overcome Only by Non-hatred

Never here by enmity are those with enmity allayed, they are allayed by amity, this is the timeless Truth.

There’s freedom in that. I wasn’t perfect in healing, but I surely had enough capacity for full surrender and did not allow the suffering to worsen. I’ve seen firsthand how individuals labeled as narcissists, psychopaths, sociopaths, and others with disordered personalities are often deeply wounded and often the very ones who go on to create systems that perpetuate harm.

And although I have no need to engage or feed the fires of misery, I’m able to remain in the deepest compassion for all conditions.

I’ve also observed many mainstream hyper-businesses built on a mentality of “beating,” “winning,” and targeting problems, but again, that doesn’t solve anything, it only profits from pain.

As I was healing from simply being born into these conditions and worldly affairs, what was most helpful was removing the mind from anything steeped in corrupted mainstream messaging…music, entertainment, media, and superficial packages often framed as “do this so you can get that,” using healing rituals, ideals, and programs as a means to an end. These were distractions disguised as progress.

And while the tone of this site may come across as direct or strictly straightforward,  it’s simply a way to illuminate and eliminate any chance of feeding corrupted patterns that have long dominated our systems and ways of relating. I was told not to be so honest or I wouldn’t “get” any clients, and to do what “works”. I didn’t take that unsolicited advice and have left organizations that teach deceptive practices.

Now, my understanding of true wealth and honest livelihood continues to evolve - shaped by wisdom, generosity, and a spirit of abundance, not by heartless accumulation or superficial ideas of being “poor” just to avoid stress-inducing cultures.

I’m open to receive through the natural fruits of vocational offering,  with the calling to create wholesome conditions that support inner peace, spiritual growth, and meaningful contribution to all life.

Accumulating money for fleeting sensual desires or hoarding material things holds no value or weight in my heart.

Moments are devoted to living freely and lightly through the steady cultivation of wisdom.

All else is simply a gift of life to be shared and enjoyed.

“Nothing is me and nothing is mine.”

It’s better to live one day with deep insight into the impermanence of life to truly see the arising and passing away of all things than to live a long life in ignorance, unaware of this truth.

This sharing is not written in stone. As I resume vocational practice and after spending much time in solitude, I’m simply speaking freely from direct experience and may revise, simplify, or delete the site along the way, if it’s not needed for practice.

It is not my intention to pass judgment, offer opinions, or present fixed views about “how the world is.” This is just an expression and truly, nothing I’m saying about the conditions of the world is new.

The only commitment here is to remain in full awareness, and not build a delusional world on the “other side.”

I’ve noticed how many people speak of leaving the “rat race” or the corporate world, while still holding tightly to old identities and generational habits.

But the Middle Way calls for something deeper, a diligent, disciplined way of being: of the world, but not in it.

Meaning, we are connected to all life, but we do not need to be caught up in its patterns, habits, modes, or constructions.

The true measure of spiritual development, emotional maturity, mental freedom, and holistic well-being is not found in outer appearance, titles, roles, or words.

With this understanding, may all that is written here be seen as momentary expression - nothing to hold onto.

This practice is dedicated to living actions that bear the fruit of wisdom in real time.